August 6th, 2008

Today was a difficult day. Not for Matt but for me. Matt's story was aired on channel 10 news this evening. It was great except I saw Matt's accident scene for the first time. Honestly I felt like I had been punched in the stomach. I couldn't breathe. I guess I always thought about what it would look like but never could i have ever been perpared for what it actually looked like. For those of you that do not have faith I hope you do now. Matt is a living, breathing miracle. God has put him here for a pupose.

I have to say that I was pretty down after I saw everything but then I looked at Matt and saw that he's right there. He's not where he was four months ago. He's come so far. Matt will show you if you give him time to show you, that he is in there and he's not giving up. He's a fighter and there's no way he'll give up now. Just tonight I sat on his bed and told him that I loved him and I believed in him. I told him I knew he would get through this. He starred at me with those big brown eyes and I knew that was his way of letting me know it's all okay. I asked him to just give me a noise, a sound, anything. I just wanted to hear his voice. He started moving his mouth and tongue. He was trying to talk. It was very obvious. He then let out a big sigh. Again I worked with him and told him to lift his head up and hold his head up from the pillow. Within 30 secconds Matt was lifting his head and holding it up. Again I worked with him only this time it was with his hands. I opened his hand and told him to relax, he did. I put my hand in his and told him to hold my hand. I was not holding his hand I just had my hand on top on his. I kept repeating myself telling him to hold my hand. Matt then grabbed my hand and held it. I then told him to squeeze my hand, he did that, then to squeeze it as hard as he could, and he did that! And let me tell you he is a strong boy!!

If Matt can do all of these things for me, his parents, etc. then why can't kaiser give him a chance at rehab? one way or the other Matt will get everything he needs. He's worth every cent! I just wish kaiser would see what I see. I wish they would get him the care he needs. Its not fair that they are just giving up on him.
As soon as we can we are bringing Matt home. Where he will be comfortable and where we can get him to the point where he can go to sharp or another rehab place. Please keep praying for some kind of miracle with kaiser.