6 Months

Sorry it's been awhile. I have been extremely busy getting everything together for the golf tournament this weekend. I'm very excited about the turn out and can't wait to see everyone there. SO thank you to everyone who is participating in one way or another. This is truly been a blessing seeing everyone come together for him.
As for Matt's progress, he's been doing so great. Learning new things, moving his left side more, his attention span. It's just been amazing. They have the hoist set up in the back yard. I haven't been lucky enough to see this yet but I hear it's absolutely amazing! Matt was standing the other day for quite a while. He's able to hold his head up and feel his whole body's weight by doing this. He's done this I believe 3 times now. Matt's memory seems to be getting better with time too. Like he did what we call knuckles (kinda like a high five only with your fist), he does the hang ten sign, sometimes I'll see him lift his hand up to almost waive goodbye when I leave. He's been taking the white board pen and holding it up to the board and scribbling on it. He'll do that for a while and then he'll get frustrated and push the pen up against the white board and wait for you to take the pen. When you grab the pen he lets go and returns his hand back to the bed. He's so focused when he does this too! He recently has been getting this look on his face as if he is really trying hard to say something but the words just don't come out. You can really see Matt is putting all of his concentration and energy into his therapy sessions.
Yesterday Matt finally got his custom wheel chair and his shower chair. This will make Matt alot more comfortable when we have him out of his bed and out in the front rooms with us. The wheelchair is more open, where as the cardiac chair was more closed in. And the shower chair! Well that will make it so much easier on Mario and Lisa. They wont have to carry him from one chair to the next. We now can just roll the shower chair right into the shower. This will be ten times more safe for everyone. It's kind of hard for me to see Matt in the wheelchair just because it's so custom to Matt's needs. It has a high neck to support his head and well it just doesn't look like a regular wheelchair. I know Matt will only need this chair for a while and its nothing that he'll need forever. The reality of all of this is something I never thought I would ever have to endure.
With it being six months in now, I have seen such great improvement in Matt's brain and the healing that is taking place. It's truly amazing how the brain can heal itself over time, but we all know that Matt has the hand of God on him and has this whole time. I just pray and hope that in the next six months Matt will continue to heal, recover, and keep moving forward to being 100%. I know we all feel this way. It's hard to not get excited at the possibilities of a bright future when you see Matt do the things he does. I get so excited and hope he just snaps out of it and tells me he loves me, and gives me a big kiss!! I hope for that everyday. We all have to keep thinking positive thoughts and keep cheering him on. He needs us to support him everyday, through every obstacle. We are what keeps Matt going. We are his future. He fights to live not just for his family, or me, or himself, but he fights for everyone one in his life. My favorite part of the day or really night is when I get home from work and he sees me for the first time. I'll crawl into bed with him and just lay next to him and cuddle up to him. He'll just put his head on my shoulder and cuddle right back. =) That reminds me that he's in there, he's just healing and it might be awhile.
Someone asked me the other day if I was happy, if I was happy with the way I was living my life by holding on to something I might never get back. You know I didn't really have to think about it before I answered. I am happy. I wouldn't change anything. I feel as though this happened for a reason, no one will ever know why it happened, but this has helped me become who I am today. It's helped me love, learn, grow, and most importantly forgive. We don't know why things happen, but instead of letting it tear our whole lives apart, let the things that happen in your life teach you something. The most important thing this has taught me is to never take what you have for granted, always say whats on your heart, never walk away, and most importantly always tell the person you love, that you love them with all your heart, because you never know when something or someone will take them away from you. Don't sweat the small stuff, because tomorrow is another day.