October 26th, 2008

Everyday I am more and more amazed by the things that Matt does. The last few days I've noticed something different about him. He looks different, I can't put my figure on it but somethings changed. I feel like he's more here ith me now than he has been since this happened. I walk in and I just see him, I can feel him, he's more alert. I got this flutter in my heart and stomach the other night while Matt was looking at me. It was such a good feeling. Sometimes I close my eyes and I lay my head on his chest and I just listen to his heart beat. It reminds me he's still there, still fighting to get back to me. Everyone said that the first few months would be the hardest, but no one told me how hard it would be now. Its been 7 months! Going 7 months without talking with him, laughing with him, sharing my day with him, and watching our love grow has been such a difficult time for me. Everything reminds me of him. When you find your soul mate you never want to spend a minute without them.