November 26th, 2008

Yesterday I went with matt to his vision therapy. It was nice to spend time with him during the day. By the time I usually get off work and get into ramona he's usually asleep. Yesterday I saw how much he is alert and aware of what's going on. It makes me feel so good when he sees me and his face lights up. Its such a good feeling. While we were sitting in therapy I just reached out my hand to matt and he stretched his arm out to mine and grabbed my hand. If I give him a squeeze he gives me one back. He's continuing to work hard, heal, and show us new things to give us all hope.
I recently have been struggling, I've been down about some things. Unfortunately I have been surrounded by negativity. I fight those demons everyday. I know there are so many people out there that love me and just want what's best for me. The thing is, Matt is what's best for me. He is my whole life. If I didn't love him unconditionally I wouldn't be here now. He has taught me so much in these last 8 months. I cannot even imagine my life without him. The accident happened, it hurts, and there will be days that I'm going to be sad and angry, but when our eyes meet he speaks to me. He loves me and I love him. So you carry the memories of the past and hope for even better memories in the future. He'll always be Matt, no matter what. I fell in love with who he is, his heart not the worldly things. Yes there will be life adjustments, there will be trialing times, and yes there will be difficult days but even through all that I still have the love of my life and to me its all worth it.
So on this Thanksgiving day think about what you are thankful for, and what makes your life so full of love and life. I am thankful for seconds chances, new starts, matts continuous recovery, matts amazing family, my beautiful niece, and my family of course. Dad, Mom, Matt, and Cristi; I'm only here because you all have been there for me through my most difficult time. I love you all so much!
Happy thanksgiving everyone!!