I'm so sorry its been so long since I have posted. I was out of town for a week and of course the 1st week back to work is always hectic.
First I want to say that being away for a week opened my eyes to really see how much progress Matt continues to make everyday. I think when you are with someone everyday you don't always see how much progress they are making.
Matt continues to make progress on his left side. Its getting stronger and stronger. We continue to get him standing in his harness, we have him sitting in his chair for a few hours at a time a couple times a day too.
Just recently they had his blood tested and it came back that his iron level was low. So we are trying to figure out how to adjust his diet so that he won't be so tired all the time. Just yesterday we had his eyes tested. Turns out that he has double vision, his depth perception is off, and tracking is also off. Its really just the muscle control in his eyes. So we have a patch that we put on one eye at a time, and some different vision therapy exercises that we will continue to do with him to get his muscle control back to what it was before. The eye doctor said that the back of his eyes looked beautiful. No damage! So that was relieving! Once she started playing around with different lenses and seeing what Matt's reaction would be, it became a lot easier for Matt to track and follow directions as far as following your finger, voice and so on. His parents said it was really amazing seeing Matt do these things. I'm hoping that as his muscles gain strength it will make physical therapy in general a lot easier. Everything will be so much more clear.
I recently just read a book by Nicholas Sparks called "The Choice". It literally is the story of Matt and I. Blew my mind away. I was in the Chicago airport last week killing time before my flight and I wandered into a bookstore. It was there that I picked this book up and decided to buy it and read it on my way home. Its quite amazing how God will put things into your life at just the right time. I had absolutely no idea this book would walk me down memory lane and show me there is light at the end of the tunnel. The one question that the writer kept writing in each chapter was "how far would you go to keep the hope of love alive?"I guess that's a question that goes through my mind everyday. And my answer is this: I will fight till the end. I will never give up hope that one day I will get the love of my life back. Yes, times right now are uncertain and hard, but our love has gotten us through the hardest parts so far. Our love has given him and I strength to get through another day. I know one day he will call out to me, he will speak, he will walk again, he will smile and laugh, he will return to us all. I can't ever give up hope.
I Say this all the time but Matt is a fighter. He always will be. He's in there and he's waiting for us to come and get him. He does not want is to give up hope.
I am truly not looking forward to the holiday season. It will be very different and hard on all of us. Matt always loved the holidays. We put our first Christmas tree up last year together. I put my stocking up, his stocking up, and Riley's (our dog) up on the mantel on the fire place. I took so much pride in the decorations and how Nice the house looked. I felt like we were a family. So even though he might not be all there for this holiday season I have decided to go forth with everything I would do as if everything were normal. That's what Matt would want. And who knows maybe ill get my Christmas wish. Just maybe.
First I want to say that being away for a week opened my eyes to really see how much progress Matt continues to make everyday. I think when you are with someone everyday you don't always see how much progress they are making.
Matt continues to make progress on his left side. Its getting stronger and stronger. We continue to get him standing in his harness, we have him sitting in his chair for a few hours at a time a couple times a day too.
Just recently they had his blood tested and it came back that his iron level was low. So we are trying to figure out how to adjust his diet so that he won't be so tired all the time. Just yesterday we had his eyes tested. Turns out that he has double vision, his depth perception is off, and tracking is also off. Its really just the muscle control in his eyes. So we have a patch that we put on one eye at a time, and some different vision therapy exercises that we will continue to do with him to get his muscle control back to what it was before. The eye doctor said that the back of his eyes looked beautiful. No damage! So that was relieving! Once she started playing around with different lenses and seeing what Matt's reaction would be, it became a lot easier for Matt to track and follow directions as far as following your finger, voice and so on. His parents said it was really amazing seeing Matt do these things. I'm hoping that as his muscles gain strength it will make physical therapy in general a lot easier. Everything will be so much more clear.
I recently just read a book by Nicholas Sparks called "The Choice". It literally is the story of Matt and I. Blew my mind away. I was in the Chicago airport last week killing time before my flight and I wandered into a bookstore. It was there that I picked this book up and decided to buy it and read it on my way home. Its quite amazing how God will put things into your life at just the right time. I had absolutely no idea this book would walk me down memory lane and show me there is light at the end of the tunnel. The one question that the writer kept writing in each chapter was "how far would you go to keep the hope of love alive?"I guess that's a question that goes through my mind everyday. And my answer is this: I will fight till the end. I will never give up hope that one day I will get the love of my life back. Yes, times right now are uncertain and hard, but our love has gotten us through the hardest parts so far. Our love has given him and I strength to get through another day. I know one day he will call out to me, he will speak, he will walk again, he will smile and laugh, he will return to us all. I can't ever give up hope.
I Say this all the time but Matt is a fighter. He always will be. He's in there and he's waiting for us to come and get him. He does not want is to give up hope.
I am truly not looking forward to the holiday season. It will be very different and hard on all of us. Matt always loved the holidays. We put our first Christmas tree up last year together. I put my stocking up, his stocking up, and Riley's (our dog) up on the mantel on the fire place. I took so much pride in the decorations and how Nice the house looked. I felt like we were a family. So even though he might not be all there for this holiday season I have decided to go forth with everything I would do as if everything were normal. That's what Matt would want. And who knows maybe ill get my Christmas wish. Just maybe.
The important thing to remember is that Matt struggles everyday trying to get to us. He's trying to build his strength and heal all at the same time. He needs all of our love and support to help him through this. He needs your continued prayers, and positive thoughts. As we all do coming into the holiday season. Non of us can do this alone.
So with all that said I will leave you with this quote; "Learn from Yesterday, Live for Today, Hope For Tomorrow."
2 comments:
Stay Strong, Lindsey! You are Matt's rock and I know he feels your love and support!!! Love you!!!
you are his everything.
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